emptiness - Shekhar Kapur

the fear of emptiness
that hollow sinking
fearthat grip of panic
that first realization
the moment of waking up
that there is nothing
there was nothing
but the mind trying to hold
fantasies and memories
to somehow connect
those fantasies
those memories
to the coming day
how will I survive it ?
if I will survive it?
with the same lies I tell myself ?
as I move the day into a construct
of reality
of importance
of memory
of addictiveness
of liesto myself
.....if only I could get out of bed
and go to the temple
as I had promised myself a year ago
or to the gym, 5 years ago
so that the hormones in my body
provoked by faith
or by excercise
could erase that cloying feeling
of emptiness
from my mind
so that the hormones in my body
provoked by faith or by excercise
could erase that cloying feeling
of emptiness
from my mind
but wait .....
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